making time

"I gave way to delight, as mystics have for centuries when they peeked through the curtains and discovered that this world- so manifestly real was actually a tiny stage set constructed by the mind. We discover abruptly that everything we accept as reality is just social fabrications. - Timothy Leary, 1966

i'm so burnt out... with all the staging.
what am i going to do with all this time?

ten years
in ten years all the people i know will be married
except me

it surprising that everyone wants to get married
kind of a shocker really

it seems like there would be more people like me

how do you mentally prepare for a solitary life?
i don't do the god thing so monks, nuns, hermits can keep their meditations
this one life isn't the other.